I haven't blogged in a while. I know. I've been too busy to think in more than a few tweets at a time. But every now and then something spills over.
I got a special email today. It meant a lot, and I just wanted to share it. I've edited a few things out, but this is 99% of it. I don't think it requires any additional commentary from me.
"I haven't really taken time to digest all of these doping confessions that have come out over the last few months. Mostly because I am too busy and to disconnected from personally being competitive in elite races now. It feels like a different life. The Crawford thing stung. I mean, we all "knew" all of this long ago. The person that mailed the epo for Crawford told me a list of names in 2002 and 2003 that included all the names listed in the Velonews article plus some others. Who knows.
And Crawford and Tyler are still making money in cycling off of their connections and affiliation with doping. That is what stings. The other thing that stings is that a lot of us never got the chance to compete in a clean sport. I mean, look at my career overlap with the dates and what was out there. My experience in Europe and what the doctor told me to do is a whole different story. But here in America, trying to eke out a living at the bottom and retroactively seeing, or 100% knowing how many spots were taken by dopers, is now hard to swallow.
I guess when I read the Crawford thing this morning it made me want to reach out to you and make you aware that you are riding for our generation, or at least as a spokesman for our generation. The generation that never had it stacked fair from day one. A lot of us got tired of treading water at the bottom knowing the system was flawed. Now, the system is better (I hope) and it is super cool that "one of us" is there to ride in this new system. These kids racing now will never know what it was like (and that is good).
More later--but just keep in mind when you are feeling beat up that there is more at play and more reason for you to keep going than your own will and desire. You speak and ride for more than yourself.
Thanks for going training today."